Kodak tri-x on ilford multigrade paper, crayons, and Styrofoam
his piece has a few meanings. It is partly about how overwhelming emotions can be and how they can flood over you without any control, especially positive emotions. When starting to feel better and staying on meds, I have often found feeling good to be very uncomfortable. After spending so long feeling bad, it can be very weird to start feeling good, for me it felt like a loss of identity, I didn't know who I was without living in severe depression. Feeling good can be very overwhelming, but I slowly became accustomed to it.
The choice of they way the crayons are lined up is a reflection of my worst battles with anxiety. I would color coloring pages with colored pencils. I needed to have the pencils in rainbow order as seen here. Coloring at that time was both very painful and the only way I knew to handle my anxiety.