Shades of Emotion
2015
Canon Rebel T3I
The following pictures are a series.
These pictures are all self portraits that represent different ways I feel at different times, often during depressive episodes and anxiety episodes. I shot these pictures while I was lying on the floor because for me, the floor is where I have my worse moments. When I get too hungry, when I have meltdowns, when I'm too tired, when I'm too depressed, I end up lying on the floor. If I'm on the floor at home, usually its a sign that I'm not okay. So it only made sense to do these self portraits on the floor. Honestly my favorites of this series are the two on the right. The upper one is often what it feels like to be disconnected. I have these episodes that are somewhat like a meltdown, yes the type that young children have. I don't really know how to describe the feeling in words. I can think completely clearly, but there is a disconnect between being able to express myself beyond whining and rolling around on the floor. I'm not really me. The one on the adjacent page is my favorite of these. The picture to me represents being silenced, and fear, and a bit of being haunted.